Thursday, December 30, 2010

A lil poem for 2010!!!

Year 2010
is comin to an end.
O, the things I've learned
and the places I've been!

At NEGST, year one is done
and year two has begun.
I've learned a ton
and have grown closer to the Son.

I went from a place of loneliness and gloom
but now my relationship with Christ is in full bloom;
I'm in a place abounding with mercy and grace.
I pray that I'll continually and diligently seek His face.

I learned who my friends are in both tough and exciting ways.
I went to Paris and Ireland for a few days
where my family and different cultures and food I did find.
I even moved houses a few times, all great experiences in my mind.

God has worked through me in various ways:
leading Youth with Unlimited Potential on Mondays,
visiting Suvia Childrens Home once in a while,
and singing on the worship team with style!

As we enter 2011
I pray that we not only focus on heaven,
but also on earth-
I pray a new love will be birthed!

I pray that we can love God
and thus live holy lives.
I pray that we can love God
and thus truly love others!

May 2011 bring about repentance and forgiveness, love and grace, mercy and peace!
I love each of you and am thankful for you in my life!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

How do we respond to suffering? (sermon by Kelly Krammer for Homiletics class 2010)

A 22 year old student at a theological college in the US paid her school fees by ministering to inner city youth. She married her “high school sweet heart” who worked mowing lawns and teaching handicap youth how to play basketball. They get the news: she’s pregnant! It’s a girl! On the big day, the husband rushes her to the hospital only to find out that the baby they had named Zoe (or life) was strangled by mom’s umbilical cord.

They suffered.

They courted for 7 years before marriage; everyone could tell they were in love. He loved to sing for the Lord; she loved to play and teach the children. They married in June. All their friends looked up to their godly relationship. Until one day, two months into their marriage, a drunk driver ran her over as she walked on the side of the street. She died upon impact; the drunk lived; the husband lived… in agony.

They suffered.

A ten year old girl stared into the beautiful brown eyes of her baby brother, her eyes filled with tears as she remembered her father and mother who died one after another due to AIDS. Her other brother returned from the river with a jerrican full of muddy water and a handful of unga. They stared at each other wondering if they would live to see another day.

They suffered.

Bad things happen to good people.

Often times we immediately ask: Why God? Why me? We did you do this? Or why didn’t you do that? And these are natural and even fair questions, but I would like to propose that the point behind the suffering is not always WHY?, but rather HOW?

I believe this is one point we can draw out of Job 2:7-10. As you are flipping your Bibles to this passage, let me give you the context around it. In the first chapter of Job we meet Job and his family. We find out that he was “blameless and upright, and one who feared God and shunned evil” (1:1)- a good person. We also get to peek into a meeting held in heaven in which God and Satan speak. God tells Satan about Job and Satan basically says, “Of course Job is a good person, he has everything he could ever want- his life is good. But I bet if he weren’t so comfortable, he would curse You.” So God says, “Let’s see… do what you want to him, just don’t hurt him physically.” God allowed Satan to bring suffering to Job. Job loses his property and children and instead of mourning, we see in 1:20, Job worshipped God. So Satan and God meet again and God gave him permission to harm Job physically, sparing only his life. That is where we pick up in 2:7-10. (READ)

Was there any reason why Job suffered? Any WHY? His friends later on try to give their answers saying there was sin in his life, he needs to repent, he is wicked…. And some may say that in the end, Job is more materially blessed and learned a great lesson on pride and humility.

But we must realize that Job was not being punished for anything he had or hadn’t done. It wasn’t a cause and effect thing… Although we can bring suffering upon ourselves because of sin as we see in

Gal 6:8- 8The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature[a]will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life.

Although that can be true… God continually repeats that Job was blameless.

Job did not know about the conversations that God and Satan were having in heaven. He was just living his life and all of a sudden within two days, he had lost everything he owned, all of his children and now he was in pain, covered with boils all over his body. And in the end we see that God does not give us an answer to Why? Rather he tells us that we are even too small to ask that question… he’s angered by Job’s friends who tried to justify Job’s suffering and He blesses Job for persevering through suffering. So, could we say that this story is not about why we suffer, but rather how? In 2:8-10, I think we get a glimpse into how we should suffer.

1. By Acknowledging our suffering/pain.
“And he took for himself a potsherd with which to scrape himself while he sat in the midst of the ashes” (8).
Job did not pretend like he was not suffering.
I had a friend who came to me one day. She was coughing and sneezing, her eyes where bloodshot, she could barely breathe… or even stand. When I went to ask her how she was and see if there was anything I could do, she answered, “In the name of Jesus, I am not sick!!!” But the truth was, she was sick. Could Jesus heal her, sure… He is a healer, but don’t we need to be sick in order to be healed.
Job knew he was in pain, and he did as many would do if they had the same condition- he took himself to the place where the lepers would go, away from others, outside the city and he scraped his wounds.

In suffering, we should not only acknowledge our suffering, but also we can respond to suffering…

2. By holding fast to our integrity and faith in a sovereign God
“Then his wife said to him, “Do you still hold fast to your integrity? Curse God and die!” (9)
Job’s wife tried to discourage him. He was even tempted because he, himself knew that living in this pain and suffering was worse than being dead, and his wife held that in front of his face. But it is clear that his wife saw that he was still holding fast to his integrity. In the midst of all the pain and suffering, Job’s character was shining through- His faith in God remained strong. He did not completely understand what was happening or why, but he trusted that God knew and that God’s will and purposes were greater than his comfort.

We can respond to suffering…

3. By coming against discouragement
“But he said to her, “You speak as one of the foolish women speaks. Shall we indeed accept good from God, and shall we not accept adversity?”” (10).
Job came against discouragement from his wife. Job’s very own wife spoke as someone who rejects God. Job could have given into the discouragement, followed the foolish advice, but instead he shows his trust and confidence in God and does not heed to his wife.

We can respond to suffering…

4. By refraining from sin. Do not sin.
"In all this Job did not sin with his lips” (10).
That’s quite self explanatory. However, it is much easier said than done. How many of us have found ourselves in situations where pain and suffering seem so difficult that we begin to question God. We begin to doubt him. We doubt his sovereignty. We doubt his plans. We doubt his goodness. I know that I, for one, am not innocent of this. Some of us fall into pits of depression; often times it is in the face of suffering that many turn from God and resort to other coping methods besides God like drinking, love of another, witch doctors, medicine…etc.
Suffering can either make or break you. But God has set us up for victory; we must choose it!

Even in suffering, when you are tempted to doubt or sin against God- know that you can make it, that He will give you a way out.

Let me encourage you that when the devil, who comes to kill, steal and destroy, brings suffering your way, you should respond by:

1. Acknowledging your suffering/pain
2. Holding fast to your integrity and faith in a sovereign God.
3. Coming against discouragement.
4. Refraining from sin.

Let us pray.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

My mommy....

My mommy has been asking about when I would update my blog... so I thought I would do so quickly now. Life is good because God is good... when we start looking at like from a Kingdom perspective, we see a lot of amazing things and understand even our failures and sufferings in a different light.
I am currently on midterm break from school. I cant believe I have been in Kenya for over a year, but at the same time, I can totally believe it... life is here! My classes are pretty good this term. I have Systematic Theology with Dr Black- let me tell you, this guy is all about deconstructing our preconceived notions and brainwashed traditions and challenging us to think for ourselves and know what we believe and why. Its tough and amazing. Then there is homiletics (preaching)- will give my first exegetical sermon at NEGST in a week... any suggestions on passage to use? Greek- what?!? You know the saying "It's all Greek to me!" Imagine actually studying Greek... let's just say I took my midterm exam yesterday and left there like, "I either got 100% or 50%." Not a great feeling... but its over with and all i can do is pray that God will help through the rest of the three terms of Greek :) And finally, I have Pentateuch (first five books in OT). It is really interesting as well, seeing as though it is my first Bible book class at NEGST. I just turned in a paper on Deception on Genesis that really challenged me and made my ask questions I had never thought of asking before.
Then, there is ministry. I am still singing with Nairobi Chapel Worship team and loving it! Also, am leading YUP (Youth with Unlimited Potential). It is on NEGST campus. A lot of the youth seem to live their lives with little accountability or instruction on things that interest them, things that really matter to them in their lives as youth. We meet every Monday for a few hours. This term, we just finished our series on music (thank you Kerah and DJ Krowbar) and will begin our next series on relationships after the midterm break. God is doing amazing things in the lives of the youth- truly transforming their minds and therefore, there actions to be focused on Him and His ways! Also part of YUP, we have the YUP band- we try to lead chapel at least once a term... this is a time for the youth to get exposed in the area of using their musical gifts for the Lord... also been awesome!
Suvia Childrens Home is doing well. I visited a few months ago and plan on visiting Oct 23rd. I will update yall on how that goes. This time we are partnering with many people. My E-group (Bible Study) will do a program in the morning of songs and skits and crafts and games. We will eat lunch with the girls, then K-krew guys will do an awesome concert for the community. Furthermore, I have some amazing friends who are donating dresses and other things to the girls that we will deliver on that day! (Thanks to everyone involved!)
What else? Plan on giving some vocal lessons to youth. Tried guitar lessons again... but decided need to do it at a time when the time and passion are both there. Hope to start painting and writing songs again. Been supporting my three little girls from church. Friends are good, although the move off campus as changed many of those friendship dynamics in good and sad ways. My E-group is awesome- iMPRINT! Although, we have been going through some tough times- many friends and family members of iMPRINT members have passed away in the last two months (keep them in your prayers). Anything else will have to wait to be updated next time... I just got served uji by my wonderful roommates- Sally na Marion! Gotta go! Peace and love!

Monday, June 7, 2010

Just a little update...


Sometimes I wish I were like those people who blog everyday about really awesome and mind-blowing things... and then I think, 'do i really want to blow my mind that often?' and decide to write a short update :)
So, we only have a few weeks of school left for this term. I have so many papers to write... and I know they will get done with the strength and grace of God. Am taking African Church History, Bible and Moral Issues, Introduction to Missions and Folk Islam. Its been an interesting term. Some of my favorite topics/papers have been on: Polygamy, Secular/Gospel Music, missions in the church, charms in folk Islam and how to practically apply history to the church in Africa now.
I have continued in singing at Nairobi Chapel. Am helping with YUP (Youth with Unlimited Potential) on campus (holla!). Am walking beside three little girls from my church working on memory verses, talking bout life and helpin out were i can. Got a band going with some of my fav people- haven't come up wit a name yet, but we have lead worship for a conference and will lead worship at chapel and a praise and worship night soon! Speaking of conferences... helped out with/attended a conference on grace and forgiveness with Christi (www.awakencoaching.org)- was amazing... God did some great stuff in us all!!! Started my new Ecclesia group a few weeks ago and it rocks!!! (which means we just ended Plug-in... which was amazing- thank you worship team group! And the retreat was... WOW!) And just trying to build relationships with people in the area- I really pray that God leads me to people who can build me up and walk in the same direction... and I pray that I can be that for others as well!
Excited to visit Suvia Children's Home again in just a few weeks! Also, excited because I may be moving off campus- please be praying about that. And am lookin at car stuff?!? And my friend KJ is comin from the US to visit for two weeks! Furthermore, I am actually going to get to see my family this summer. We will meet up in Europe! Yea! Moreover (i like this connecting words) excited about stacey's wedding in about a month (am on line... for first time in life!)
I had a bunch of friends leave Kenya this past month and that has been a bit tough... but please be praying for them. Rachel (my twin) went back to Malawi because she has been sick for long... we pray she will be able to come back in a years time. Memory (my prayer partner) went back to Zimbabwe... she will be getting married in Dec. Hannah (my lil sis) went off to college in the US. Thandiwe (she informs me, i am her "new social life") traveled to the states for a summer internship. After graduation in July, more people will be leaving- so pray for them and pray for me at the same time.
Overall, life is good... am living and learning and living and learning... I just pray that God will continue to mold me and renew my mind each day that I may become more and more like Him in all I do. I praise Him for His grace and forgiveness that is constantly there especially when I do wrong, knowingly, unknowingly, towards Him and others.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Striving for Greatness... changing the status quo... changing the world: Lessons from Mwende at Suvia Children's Home


I have discovered that service is paradoxical in its nature. Every time that I feel that God has laid it on my heart to go serve or help or change, I come back from the experience myself served, helped and changed. This is no exception with Suvia Children’s Home.

About two years ago, I was part of a team who helped build various parts of the home. When we left, it was still unfinished and there were no children. I returned to Kenya in 2009 for schooling and on my first break, I traveled back to Suvia to find it filled with 26 vibrant and loving girls! The next break I had, I knew I had to return again. This time I went to visit the girls, but also to interview them so that World Servants can prayfully get each one of them sponsored. Through this process, I was able to get past the usual visitor’s songs and poems to learn a little bit about each girl with their own voice: their own story.

One such story was that of Mwende. I don’t know all of the details, but what I do know has changed my life. Mwende is one of the older girls at Suvia. She is a born leader and inspires us all to reach for greatness! Mwende’s parents and grandparents are no longer in her life through various circumstances. She was left in her early teens to take care of her younger siblings. There came a point when it was too much for her; she didn’t know how to be a mom- she tried to take her own life. Thank God that attempt failed because today she is a beacon of light to everyone she sees. She is determined to one day become the President of Kenya. I believe that that can happen and, more importantly, so does she!

The thing is that our world is made up of individuals, but it is also made of systems. It is important for an individual to have a dream, a drive, and natural abilities. If we work hard, we should be able to achieve our goals. But that is not always true. Many people get stuck in a system that does not allow them to reach their goals. Many people do not have the opportunities that others might have for many reasons.

So, I have begun to think (I know, a dangerous thing!) and I have not come up with a solution to all the world’s systemic issues and injustices. But I am thinking; I am challenging myself to not be okay with the status quo, but to strive for greatness- just like Mwende. I want bright, God-fearing, leaders like the girls at Suvia to not only reach their goals, but to change the world! So how does that happen? I am thinking about it… are you?

How can we each use our abilities and resources to change the world for the better?

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

PICTURES

If you want to see pics of my life... check em out at http://kellynkenya.shutterfly.com/

Monday, April 12, 2010

Life Keeps Goin n Goin n Goin...

Last term went well. I learned a lot in class and out.
Classes: Power encounter, Christian Relations with Muslims, Islam in Africa, Biblical Theology of Mission, African Traditional Religion and Church History. (Hope to write a few separate blogs on some of these, maybe?!?)
I also sung in the praise team at my Nairobi Chapel and got "plugged in." I am finally feeling like I know people here and am part of something... praise God!
After the term was over, I was able to do a bit of traveling. I first went to Kali to visit Suvia Children's Home again. Loved it! The children truely have been a blessing to me. I love playing and talking with them. And seeing their resilience and perserverance even when life has thrown them some curve balls.
My friend and sister, Nidah, traveled there with me and together we interviewed the girls (in English, Kiswahili and Kikamba- thanks Nidah!). Prayfully, these interviews will help to get the girls sponsors. We are currently looking for people who are willing to help the girls with food, clothing, school fees, etc. (If you, or anyone you know, are interested in doing so, please contact me!)
After, Suvia, I traveled with a bunch of friends to Naivasha. We camped and climped Mt. Longonot! It was really fun bonding with friends and seeing the beauty of God's creation.
Then I went with a different group of friends to Isebania, which is at teh border of Kenya and Tanzania. We stayed with Tom's sister's (Christine) family the first night. After which, we traveled out to the village! This was my first experience of a village that looked like the picture of an African village I have always had in my head. They lived in huts made of a special kind of mud/clay. The huts were situated in a circle with a stick fence closing in the gaps. This way, the animals could come in at night and be protected. The family was huge and really warm and generous. The father and his three wives and inumerable children all lived in the compound. The family grows and dries tobacco. It was here that I ate the best ugali ever made of cassava and had the coolest shower ever- sorrounded by bright green palm branches, the shower was only tall enough to cover up to my shoulders, so I was able to see the entire 'country side' while splashin myself with warm water!
We traveled back to Christine's house the next day and stayed for two days (one day longer than had planned bc Nidah got sick, pole sana Nidah). Then we came back to campus. The next day, I was blessed with the opportunity to go with my plug-in group and some other members of Nairobi Chapel to do some ministry in Kiberia (huge 'slum'). We did some home visits of parents whose children go a program that we eventaully helped out with. We brought them some flour, soap, tea leaves, etc and talked to them about Christ. We prayed with the parents. Three people gave their lives to Christ! Thank you Jesus! Then we went and helped with the children's program! It was an amazing, life changing experience.
Now, school has started again. I have my first classes tomorrow. Most of you already know that I changed programs from MA Missions to MDiv General. This means different classes with different people and different professors and also an extra year of studying! It also means that this term is going to be quite light! I have four courses: African Church History, Folk Religion, Bible and Moral Issues and Intro to Missiology (even though I have taken like 8 missions courses...). Because its light this term, i hope and pray I will be able to be more involved with the community and church!

Friday, January 1, 2010

No class... now what?

We had the entire month of December off to "rest." Where did the time go anyways? I have two more days before class begins again! What did I even do?

First, I went to a children's home in Dagoretti. We did a lesson about sharing and colored and sung songs and made clothe pin angels. It was great!


Well, then I was pretty sick- what's new. After, I traveled to Mombasa with my friend from Church. While there we went to the beach. I learned to wind surf. We stayed with her aunt and uncle who were awesome! We went to see some animals. We also went to this sweet cultural village thingy! You walk through the woods and see different examples of homes of 7 of the 42 tribes in Kenya. They also speak in thier language, dance, sing, grind millet and corn... it was really informational and exciting! We also visited a friend in Milindi which was great as well!


Then came home and planned, shopped for, baked for and then executed an amazing Christmas dinner/program with friends and fam on compus! David and I baked for hours- cookies, banana bread, chicken, green bean cassarole and deviled eggs and then on the day of Christmas the american food and traditions were met with food and traditions from Kenya, Zambia, Lyberia, Nigeria, Ethiopia, Denmark and Congo. It was an international extravaganza!


Then I was sick again... what the heck!?? Then I traveled to Machakos and Kali. Had an amazing time there with the Kisuas! Went to Suvia Children's Home. This is the orphanage that GSLC helped build last year. When we left much was unfinished and there were no children. Now there are 26 wonderfu, vibrant, smart and gifted girls there! They sung, danced, gave poems for us. They also introduced themselves and told us what they wanted to be when they grew up. One wanted to be the president of Kenya! I believe she can with support and opportunities... so please pray for all of the girls and please search your heart if you would like to sponser one of the children this year!


Also while in Kali, I was able to attend a youth rally which was soo packed! that was encouraging and exciting! I ministered with two songs (sing and guitar) that I pray blessed the youth's lifes: Trading My Sorrows and Light the Fire. The youth were so amzing though with their songs and dance and an original wonderful song by Bahola.... wow!


I returned to NEGST in time for New Years! Which was probably the best one yet! I ate dinner with the fam and freinds- chapo, katchumbari, cabbage, pilau, stew, chai.... We then ushered in the new year with songs and dance, prayer and a Word from papa! Then we headed out to TSO (Totally Sold Out)! SO awesome! We danced all night to Kenyan Gospel artists! Wow!


In the middle of all these things, i was able to hang out with some pretty awesome people. I learned a new game called Settlers, which I am addicted to. I read a book. Watched the entire first season of Criminal Minds... love it! And just enjoyed myself. At the same time, have been in reflection and prayer... about service, forgiveness, and newness. Please pray with and for me!